1. |
The Naked Truth (2017)
02:45
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Her name was Carson
though we were nowhere near the city
Where women make it
getting naked to shake it for fifties
She approached me fully clothed
but spoke like any other stripper
"How about a dance, baby?"
"No, thanks. How about dinner?"
It wasn't a joke - even if she giggled
"It'd have to be a taco truck; cheap and simple."
An obvious tom boy.
Secrets swelled under skin like sandpaper
I'm no damn savior. Just a fan/stranger
Hoping to reverse the adverse
affects her dad gave her
I threw a smile that said I'd genuinely,
Sincerely,
Seriously love to take her
A look, I'm sure, she was trained to ignore
But a look she wasn't used to seeing
Trapped in a trance of eyes eager to explore
This look saw her core - I saw her human being
A smile flashed seeing more than cash
Sadly, it was all that was on her Doppler
She furthered her rounds, on occasion sitting down
Until a voice over the speaker called her
Business men sat front row
ready to throw dollars
Most likely married men
Wearing the very suits they'd be buried in
Before rolling around in their squalor
Blue collared squatters
that wouldn't bother to call her if she offered
Those fascist bores saw a fucking whore
Nothing more than a sex symbol
I saw hope. Heroism.
Someone naked, naive and nimble
I saw pain
mixed with forgiveness.
A sister, a mother, a daughter
That night, I watched beauty bleed on the altar
That night, I watched an honest woman born
Torn between sobriety and society's norms
Witnessed through eyes without a fool's vision
As the child came alive and quickly died
to Tool's "Schism."
A whole life interpreted in a few short breaths
A heart on the sleeve still beats
Like that in an exposed chest
As brave as G.I. Jane in the middle of a mess
Fighting for the steady freedom
of these heavy breathing pets.
Set in her role: judge, jury and exhibitionist
With a clean routine to those
yet to grow indigenous
I wasn't from L.A. - I was simply a tourist
On a two month stay
-to run away before my flower could flourish.
But that night I stood stupefied
Watching a human life -
Human. Like you and I. -
Crucified in lieu of light
Us: the sheep. Her: the Shepard.
Dead center with our eyes locked
Stark naked and slowly breaking
For our temptation so we could watch
The second coming
at the sake of sounding sacrilegious
I felt time stop.
Halfway between "too late"
and a "bad decision"
I approached her once it was over
to find her acting different
The dollar with my number on it
was met with mechanical mannerisms
Holding my hand,
looking in my eyes like she loved me
Promising she'd text,
like I was nothing like the rest
But it wasn't sincere. Only what I wanted to hear.
She was only in it for the money.
I thought "look, honey.
I don't need your feigned affection."
Even though my face showed
confusion for a missed connection
So, for a split second, I may have
been in love with a stripper
Her name was Carson
Now I live in Reno
Go figure.
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2. |
Porcelain Dolls (2010)
04:08
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[Verse]
See the hairline cracks in her porcelain skin
The little dimples and dents
in her cheeks and chin
An angel's kiss placed right above her lip
Watching everyone walk by
from the shelf she sits
Subtle blue eyes, rosy red cheeks
Perfect teeth hidden behind a
perfect smile not to speak
As she sits still in silence
blinded by heavy eyelids
Watching the world go by atop her shelf
Never to be held - she wasn't made for play
Only for display - if she ever fell, she'd break
Then she'd be worthless to collectors
and merchants that would only do the same
And neglect her perfection in the same way
Her fingernails painted a beautiful red
Gorgeous brown locks
pouring from her head
With disdain growing behind pained eyes
Wishing someone else was the prize instead
In all her perfection
she's not to be messed with
When deep down she wants to be touched
She wants to be hugged - she wants to be loved
But no one will play with her
For fear of breaking her
So high on the shelf she remains
That is her place for the rest of her days
With her long distance gaze
and pretty white gown
Only to collect dust
in the corners of her mouth
And weigh that smile to a frown
[Interlude]
[Verse]
See the smudges and scratches
on her porcelain skin
Inviting blue eyes
accompanied by reluctance to even let you in
Long eyelashes like bars on a gate
Watching everyone walk by
from the shelf she waits
Observing and learning
that the world isn't safe
Played with a couple times
acquired some cuts and scrapes
Made for display;
amazed she's yet to break
But her shelf isn't that high
Only about eye level where they set her
It still comes as a big surprise
When she doesn't break
when she falls to the dresser
But most dolls would probably
crack from the pressure
But not her.
She may lose a piece or two but
they just glue her back together
She's never the same though
Her face and frame look the same
but something's changed
Inside her eyes is something painful
And that's why she'll play but isn't always playful
That's why she'll play but isn't always graceful
Sitting awkward on a shelf for a long time
does have a disadvantage
It has the potential to cause damage
and throw one off balance
So she sits slanted
Watching the world in worry
Knowing that she'll never understand it
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3. |
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[Hook]
She's got all the symptoms
No confidence in her system
No one can see why she stays with him
She says it love, I say she's a victim
[Verse]
You ask for mercy, I ask if you deserve it
I mean, come on. Is my time really worth it
to hear you piss and moan
and beg for forgiveness?
I've heard this speech
a hundred times before
I almost know it word for word
I don't need to listen
Oh, this time's different? Yup, right on cue
You've seen the error in your ways,
You wanna change and I wanna believe you
You'll apologize in 3, 2, 1
Yup, there it is. Like you always do
But who are you apologizing to:
Me, who can't stand the sight of you
Or yourself for slipping and
ripping your life in two?
You say things'll get better but they never do
And ol' clever you manage to persuade me
One minute you love and praise me
Next minute you're fucking crazy
Sounding off like you hate me
Next day, you say you don't
"it was just an episode"
Excuses, excuses.
Yea, here we go. Let 'em flow
There's a lot on your mind, you're stressing so
bad and you have trouble letting go
My question is: which one are you lying to?
Who you trying to convince?
'cause when you get pissed
And say you hate me it really sounds like you do
'till you take it back tomorrow
saying "I'd die for you"
But you know what?
One day I'ma call your bluff
And put a fucking knife in you
I used to say "I love you"
'cause I saw the knight under
the armor shining through
But now I picture myself
knocking out those teeth you're
always lying through
I hate this side of you
Now I lay awake nights from you
-thinking how I can escape
You sit there and promise change
But I'm done fighting you
You wanna do what's right for me
But you should focus on
what's doing right for you..
[Hook] x2
[Bridge]
She hangs here in this prison
By the thread of love she's given
Wishing he'd change but he isn't
She's got Stockholm Syndrome
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4. |
Nicole (2012)
03:22
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[Verse]
You want perfection? I see destruction
Society serves as a wormhole
It sucks to see you sucked in
You must've got a concussion from
descending heaven's steps
You must've caught your lace and hit your effin' head
You're hoping for a halo? You'll be lucky for a ring
Keep acting like this. I won't change for the machine
I can't date a robot. I can't see a thing
Even a caged bird sings
Your voice must be broken
Choking on fresh air cause it's free
You gotta be a key, a token to the gate
I should poke you to make sure you're awake
You sleep too much, dream too little
And want what everyone has
You've made that clear, Crystal
Fistful of failures and shame on your breath
It's a pain to watch you try gain anything from sex
Don't trip. I won't look at you any less
Here's a breath mint and some twenties
Make sure I'm next
[Hook] x2
Did it hurt? (Did what hurt?)
When you fell from heaven
It's not a pickup, it's a punchline
On your search for perfection
And just like the movies, everything's fake as fuck
Maybe if I kill the green screen it'll wake you up
[Verse]
Go ahead, live life like everything's a travesty
You're mad at me 'cause you
can't see the pageantry?
I'd send you an invite to the laughing tree
but you're so high on your branches
you'd probably laugh at me
Glad to be the last to see Ms. "Beauty Queen"
Try her way into a movie scene
You won't get the part
You may have all the looks but
you don't have the heart
Ugly duckling was a swan all along
Now the duckling's is sucking her way to the top
You won't earn the spot
You'll get dropped from the list
On the train tracks tied at the ankles and wrists
There's something wrong with this:
It's been done before
By struggling actresses that come before
Nowadays, it's not enough
to possess skills and traits
They want chicks with looks,
Chicks with hooks
willing to raise the stakes
That'll stop at nothing
Like they cut the breaks
If you don't catch the drift
They want you suck dick and
take one to the face
So most never make
their debut and do porn flicks
[Hook] x2
[Interlude]
[Hook]
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5. |
The Last Apology (2014)
03:19
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[Verse]
I bought her flowers today..
she deserved 'em
No special occasion
other than she earned 'em
She's a hell of a woman to stay by my side
After I full on rage with that
crazed look in my eye
I try to do better - I swear, I really do
But she and she alone knows the truth
I'm not gonna change 'till I see my issues
'til then, I'm in denial seeing what fists prove
Not much. But I continue to clutch
Continue to clench
All I see is red 'til red drips from her head
and I stop. Shocked at what I've done
"It'll never happen again"
[Hook]
"I'm sorry, so sorry" - ringing in her ears
"I'm sorry, so sorry" - won't wipe away her tears
"I'm sorry, so sorry" - won't help suppress her fear
"I'm sorry.." - lies told to her for years
[Verse]
I bought her flowers today..
and some chocolates
Last night was bad.
We argued and she just wouldn't drop it
I tried to keep calm but I lost it
and wailed on her 'til she begged me to stop it
Fuck! What the hell is wrong with me?
Do I find comfort in the dark side - swallowing me
Calling to me - waiting for a response?
With my short fuse it doesn't take long
I don't smoke, I don't drink, I have no other vices
but these fits of rage render me blinded
It's like I black out
After last night, both her eyes are black now
Three broken fingers and cracked floating rib
Then the choke marks I hope no one notices
Told the doc we have rickety old steps
And as she slept on bed rest, I said
"I'm gonna change, babe"
And kissed her on the head
[Hook]
[Verse]
I bought her flowers today..
the biggest day of my life
I bought the best bouquet around the way
for my wife
Not to say "sorry" - I've truly changed
It took time to find but I can't stay
Don't ask how I'll manage
I want you to know I finally understand
Last week I did the most damage to my baby done
and realized I'm the crazy one
Those nights weren't worth the seizures
and medical procedures, fees,
nose bleeds, scrapped knees or lesions
Love don't throw fists for any reason
And I'm sorry for it never being even
I don't know what to say
except "I'm sorry"
I hope that that's okay
I promised to change too many times
"Goodbye, babe."
I'll put these flowers on your grave
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6. |
A Possum's Plague (2010)
04:04
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The kid never had a chance..
Check his train tracks to
decipher a hiker's path
At first glance, they scorn
like a magnifying glass
With no recollection of a past
They pass on the looking glass
But not to look. They use it for cooking ants
Yea, that's fair. Set fire to the ant hill
Leave him so scared he'll just stand still
Another flower down the drain - awesome
Plucked and cut before
it even got to blossom
Which is worse: weighing in or watching?
In retrospect, they're the only two options
Would you rather stomp him
Or be the pussy that didn't stop 'em?
Use caution.
He played possum during hide n seek
and they fucking forgot him
Sick to my stomach that I
fucking did nothing and sat back
I may as well help put
the cheese in the rat trap
Sitting in silence to be broke by a fat "snap!"
Then jump back and act all surprised?
Naw, fuck that.
Unlike these guys, I'm not blind by lies
So let me apologize in advance
The kid never had a chance
And there's blood on my hands no matter what
Spattered blood
Cause I didn't back the bastards up
And scream "he's had enough!"
Story's sad enough but will it tell?
Live life in a shell only to
sell when the leaves fell
If I believed, I believe I'd see hell
But this is hell: having to live with the smell
It's a sad fact for such a bad rap
Did I ever care? And it pains me to ask that
Truth hurts. It's a harsh weight
to carry with a bad back
If I believed, I wouldn't wanna be absolved
Only remembered for treating it like nightfall:
"It happens everywhere.
We've all got problems.
It'll solve itself. One person won't stop it."
And this is where I
sympathize with the possum
'Cause him and I have this in common
Both playing dead 'till the
threat is gone and over with
Almost comatose 'cause
the truth is too sobering
But what happens when a possum
plays so long it's no longer play?
Spending too much of the
day in that vegetative state
Try to recall memories from
childhood and draw a blank
Eventually, he's gonna start
wishing it wasn't fake
Hope and pray without answers,
gradually lose his faith
Start filling up with hate,
knowing the world isn't safe
How much can a poor possum take?
Before he's in a motel and the
sex and drugs aren't enough?
Closed drapes.
And his only escape is a .38
Suicide note wrote with the utmost of truth
Saying his options ran out
with no choice but to shoot
He blames you and only you
with no sign of excuse
And offers his blood,
brains and body...
as the proof
[Outro]
I now know what it is that Jesus did
when he died for our sins
Maybe to "absolve" is to "absorb" as well
He just sat back and felt guilty
about not stopping the sinners around him
Which, in his eyes, became his sins too
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7. |
Red-Handed (2012)
02:10
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"I take his weapons away...both of 'em."
If someone's raped is that a test of faith?
Good things happen to bad people
and vice verse everyday
Who's to blame for the
injustice that takes place?
Lying in wait; crouching tiger,
Liar in dire need of restraint
So much blood spilled
disguised as red paint
Fate has an ugly way of
twisting citizens positions
'til their vertebrates break
And evilness invades
Scruples are fucked nowadays
It's all about getting bitches and getting paid
Getting riches and getting laid
So it's no surprise when a
friend of mine gets raped
Whether blacked out or passed out drunk
It really sucks that
drunk girlfriends gotta rely on me
So they won't get fucked
by these products of a fucked up society
And I can't be in two places at once
-to protect 'em from these fucking chumps
They should be able to fucking trust!
Driven by lust and their overpowering,
cowardly urge to bust nuts
When it's quality vs. quantity
anybody's bound to get fucked
Thus, these punks and chumps
are chimps seen as pimps
Walk with a limp
'cause I shot you in the hip, motherfucker
Talk with a lisp
'cause I socked you in the lip, motherfucker
You think you're slick, don't ya?
Getting your kicks from
taking advantage of chicks
It's a sand trap, sucka.
You better start thinking
'cause you're sinking quick
All to prove your place
among all the other swinging dicks
To them, you may be seen as "pimp"
But to those that matter,
you're seen as "BITCH!"
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[Verse]
Daddy didn't play well with her insecurities
And mommy blamed her for the scars and lost dreams
School was a bitch and she could never sit still
With bi-polar tendencies, an addiction to her pills
She made every excuse to cut and starve
Her petite body would never digest carbs
Ribs bleed through skin that's ruined by the sun
Because she hides in the closet until winter comes
You wouldn't think she was thin from the swelling in her face
And bruises act as eyeliner for any given day
Screaming as become music to her ears
As blood drips from her wrist to wash away the tears
Cigarettes and wine help put her demons down
But at night when she rests boogeymen make their rounds
[Interlude]
[Verse]
She awakes to cold sweats from sleepless nightmares
Neck wet, deep breaths, pillow littered with pulled hair
She'll never forget, never forgive what the world's done
She thinks happiness only comes for pretty ones
So now she's dolled up and as plastic as a mannequin
Used, tossed aside then back on the rack again
Dusted and polished and clothed with impurity
For the half-off tags on her back to prove worthy
"Someone please help" as she faces another foe
Only this one has her bent over with a muzzle to her nose
"So help me god, if you try to scream or cry
I'll light up your face like the fourth of July."
[Interlude]
[Verse]
The night ends with her lying in the alley
Playing a symphony with her dagger
Two weeks later, she missed her time of the month
Knowing all too well the man that got it done
Does she keep it or does she kill it? Her mind full of clutter
Realizing she's taken on the life of her mother
Her greatest fear is waking up another day
So she sits in her corner writing a suicide sundae
[Bridge]
A knife across my wrist for all of daddy's rage
A handful of pills for each bi-polar phase
A noose around my throat to still my nerves
A bullet through my ears to silence mommy's words
200 feet to the ground to please the punks in junior high
40 gallons and a battery to light up the sky
One step from a curb for every beating undeserved
A lake and a brick for every year on this earth
[Outro]
Ultimately, she would put her dagger through her ribs
So's to kill herself and Prince Charming's kid
Now she lay peacefully, bleeding out relief and pride
For this world proved too much for the alleyway's bride
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SinsHere Reno, Nevada
MC. Poet. Sincere. Growing up in a broken home, SinsHere found writing at the tender age of 8 and began using words to interpret his surroundings. What initially began as a defense mechanism quickly transformed into a passion for the art of hip-hop. His stage name may hint at the sincerity in his lyrics but his brutal honesty shines through and hold it's own next to D-Minor’s mesmerizing beats. ... more
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