Nihilist, survivalist Ha! I'm no survivalist I'd rather read about 'em than throw books into a fire pit Wanna inspire kids. That won't happen Truth be told: my truth is old. This is what a liar is Plus, who the fuck would admire this? Rules are made to break - so are hearts My insides work fine but I'm missing vital parts If you've got the time I could find 'em but they'd be "a la carte" Robin Williams died now suicide's an art Reality's a farce, a fallacy at large Buried faces in the oasis but always seeming parched To the mirage they march Bottled fear put in mass production I sit for the flag so assume I stand for nothing Queries and theories never come to fruition And I'm selfish. Like wasting my kids college tuition Which is funny. Hate money but need it to survive who gives a fuck? I don't believe in being alive No hell or steps in Zepplin's stairs Only time I prayed was over pizza and a pregnancy scare Prayer don't work. It's a fucking fairy fable Well-aware I'm an asshole but don't believe in labels Passive and yet, I tend to pack the punches Laid back and level yet, I'm always mad at something Raised under the rays of liars so I aspire to speak honestly When I say "it's a fact. I can't rap" they just think it's modesty but it's true. This album's horse shit That's why it's free I don't endorse it, so don't support it and if you don't torch it I'll assume you lied to me Marriage is for sheep, love is for suckers Only thing I love are drugs and booze They boost my mood and dissolve the structures I don't believe in decency or leniency I've heard to be loving but it seems to me there's no need to be And I don't believe in family 'cause family don't believe in me Those that love me ask how I walk away so easily 'cause I've watched so many flee the scene "the scene" being me I've grown prone to people leaving me You won't see me under the grieving tree It's an important piece of me. It's essential to my health But I don't believe in anything Not even myself.

[Intro] You will die alone. Sad, cold and alone. Pulled from your home and left to die on the crest of the side of the road Deep in the desert like the dog you are With shit for company but the stars X marks the spot on the plot of land you chose to bury the bones long ago.. [Verse] This is your true home Take your rightful place as the spiteful face on the tombstone It's pitiful, really, that this is your legacy: To toss around a cross and crown peasantly Though you got 'em from the lost and found You're a dog of a piss poor pedigree You know nothing of royalty And you know nothing of loyalty In your last days, we will expect directions to the mass grave in question In your last days, there will be no acceptance of death bed confessions You've had a lifetime to apologize for all the lies and try to make a difference I will not lie. You will die without my forgiveness In your last days, you can claim you were ashamed and scared But your kids aren't stupid We know the truth is you just didn't care [Verse] It wasn't enough that he was beating you You'd poke and provoke him 'til the girls got beaten too Such a motherly thing to do. I don't know how you sleep I hope it fucking eats at you And you judge me for how I'm getting through? You've only supported us if it benefited you And you wonder why I've said such nasty shit to you 'cause you know what I didn't do? Condone child abuse and lie about it So here I stand. As I am. A product of my surroundings I know you didn't really tap your foot and point but for the first 12 years I didn't really have a choice And 12 years later I'm shaking a fist at the path that you've paved me As much as it pains me to admit, I've done shit to Avery in the midst of being angry I'm not proud of it but with tears in our eyes she forgave me And that's the difference between you and I I won't let the rage enslave me [Interlude] All I ever wanted was an admission of guilt Problem solved, wrongs absolved Watch the walls dissolve of the prison you built All we ever wanted was an admission of guilt And you couldn't even do that Like a pig in shit, you'd rather sit in your filth But- [Bridge] You say "those days have died. Dead, gone, buried alive - so leave it." There's reason for burying your secrets The problem is they survived And- [Hook] x2 It's not worth my time to watch you gag and suffer I just wanna be there (to laugh) when Satan drags you under ..into the elephant graveyard ..into the elephant graveyard out in the elements with the elephants ..in the elephant graveyard

[Verse] Every inch of me threaded through your tapestry A circus of vermin gathered to laugh at the count of casualties As the bodies pile I rifle through the imagery And shed a tear with my last ounce of dignity If the world is your oyster - I am it's shell Soaking in the moisture - caught in the swell I remember vividly all the gifts you've given me From the arrows to the bullets And everything in between You can measure the crossed hairs in the crossbow As I count the soft hairs on your head You can count the bullets you have yet to load Or we can map out a plot to rest But every word burns like ghost pepper I should've known better Years of chasing rainbows and I found no treasure But you were so special There was no pressure applied and you became a diamond It wasn't 'til the mummy wrap un-winded that I finally realized it Now I've spent a lifetime apologizing My bad timing banned access to the tomb Soon to be consumed in a 'shroom cloud of gloom (boom!) I'm still not convinced of the apocalypse I'm too busy walking on eggshells and broken promises [Hook] x2 Fill in the blanks - I hope to rank up Maybe I'll wake up walking the plank Over the shark tank - These are dark days And in large ways you complete me A puzzle: left unfinished Sitting on the table - pieces missing Overlooked and boring A leech amongst the chlorine [Verse] You're pulling on my heart strings like a cable car It's funny. I used to think we wouldn't make it far Now look at us. Holding hands as we chase the stars But you've got my fucking heart trapped in a mason jar And with every step you re-stretch these faded scars They were almost closed I was almost home Then the road turned to dirt Now I stand here froze Left again to question the path I chose I could've swore I tasted victory Nope. It was false hope Just another instrument of your cheap trickery So I'm drinking rum and coke to drown any need for sympathy I hate you and your fucking mummy curse My fucking stomach hurts And I'm waiting on something worse But I think the worst thing is living in the past Looking around wondering if everything will last The slightest bump and this house of cards will collapse We're on the Titanic polishing the brass Still, I remain here reciting the same sonnet Standing on the tracks Wishing to play chicken but there isn't a train on 'em Holding an empty glass Trying to silence the same problems "This too shall pass." Until then, there's a bar stool with my name on it And I'm not ready to acknowledge That I'm not being entirely honest [Bridge] Did I really love you? I can't be sure I thought you were the one but maybe you weren't We were great together, Saw myself with you forever But when it ended I wasn't even hurt Did I really love you? I can't be sure I thought you were the one but maybe you weren't We were great together, Saw myself with you forever But deep down I always knew I could do better

[Verse] "Front Toward Enemy's" Back-to-back centerpiece Bus cables gripped, bit lips to pick pocket the treasury Amid the jealousy and devilry they don't savor the razor flavored wafers or the snifter sipping ketamine Gretel's special recipe. Guerrilla market targeting Time spent with spines bent sharpening shark teeth Part A and Part B: parallel heartbeats. Nuisance's crucifix fixed with an arrowhead Won't stop, look or listen 'til the fat lady pharaoh's dead Two sides of the same dime spinning Mint condition. Two sets of teeth in it's narrow edge Bloody Mary mix mixed into the concrete Take a tornado to air out the dirty laundry But that kind of truth is "to affinity and beyond" me Unless the scripture's written in the seesaw seat With the same scissors used to cut corners We've built these borders. Wolf-proof mortar gold tooth slivers - forced into the fixtures In hopes to stoke flames in the name of old pictures [Hook] x2 Stop, drop and roll with the punches Since we could stand we've stood for something Good for nothing smart-mouth shit heads Live to push limits - born to push buttons [Verse] Second-hand smoker's cough Sharing laughs in the joker's loft Jumping through hoops like poodles and troops to get the choker off Broke or not, we don't prophesize the profit loss Common talk doesn't come with a pocket watch Needles and pins make the evil ones grin but disaster averted by the rocket launch Avoid blast off. Looking like a winter solstice Sasquatch Once they take the mask off, Hart rate on a catwalk Just left the cattle car Adding stickers with pictures of battle scars to already savage avatars Thou shall not stoop to cross wounds Despite everything they've taught, we opt not to Waiting anxious on the dog-gone monsoon Sporting "told you so" T-shirts, Smiling 'til our cheeks hurt Passing through on a pontoon Brick, bone, stick, stone-stuffed stockings Two hot shots of sake and a fat bag of pizza toppings [Hook] x2 [Verse] "Lights, camera," crunch time Four feet firm on the front lines Boots laced, guns drawn, gloves off, sun's gone Lunch time Punchlines laced with kerosene Don't bury me behind the blood line Dare to dream. Battle born. Torn between the matadors and the Labradors We could tackle storms - move mountains But we're further more herbivores and crowning Drowning in counting centuries of peasantry Recipes for pleasantries to be burned in effigy The slander and the candor Can't possibly compete with chemical weaponry We've mastered the craft of disaster A couple barefoot bastards Weaving through lesions with laughter Scattered through yesterday's ashes Lost after the last chapter Blood > water. Swim past the fear Sea lions denyin' their castle tiers A refusal to follow a fossils' tracks Bindles full of bottle caps Shell-shocked Suicide watch set to 1,000 O'Clock [Outro] Friendship bracelets In a pavement arrangement. When life gives you lemons Throw 'em in the cake mix

[Prelude] I was voted "Most Likely To Grieve After Graduation" I just wasn't ready to leave [Verse] I carved my name in the bark I was good where I stood, I saw no reason to part ways No reason to partake in the heart break I hung my boots on the tongue of my roots after a hard day But the ark came and friends bailed to set sail over the dark depths Still, I found the fable far-fetched Sitting at the bar sipping beer Watching stars disappear 'til there wasn't a star left I was Clark Kent. Without the suit underneath. Burying the pain with my tongue-in-cheek Ask to say something sweet, I'd pull out rubber teeth and say something cheap I've kept myself in neutral Fixated on the rear view, staring at the pupils both past and present Taking note of when they've shown Some have shrunk, some have grown Some have sunk like a stone Flunked or flown, we all search for the center of the cyclone only take a mild case of my old ways To pick up a phone But all I've done is migrate into the shadows five-fold Like the phantom of the opera [Hook] Just a drag, just a toke a half of a pack of your passion to cope Black bag and a rope a crack in the past to mask with a joke Nobody laughs at the jester Blind in need of hope Everyone laughs at the gesture 'cause I don't even smoke [Verse] That night, I stole the show selfishly Without a torch of my own, I'd bask in the glow of those that held them and helped me see It was naive of me to hope it would last But when everyone stood up, I stood back Holding my back against the current Searching for direction in a less-than-glassy surface What the future held had me nervous a crystal ball with black glass Coming from a black past, my future had to be perfect Instead, I got hostile and dug myself a foxhole Digging in one spot trying to find gold Digging in one spot for copper fossils Following the north star stitched into my blindfold Only come to find it was a moth hole Ma may have insisted on swimming lessons but I somehow found drowning as my best profession Bachelor's in deception, masters in misdirection Magician's assistant waving a white flag I feel so bad but I feel more mad to have turned the biggest night of our lives into a gag I held the reigns of my pain and chose to mask it Mr. Marland's back flip times ten A false bravado of bravery in a smile with a buck tooth I said goodbye to my friends forever with a foam finger "fuck you"

[Hook] Hold your breath in the squalor See who can hold it longer No amount of rocks will stop the flood You'll hold your breath 'til you cough up.. [Verse] Swallow the anchor - spit out your teeth Wallow in anger - swim in your grief Dive in it, thrive in it, live there Drown in your fucking despair Paddle on, Padawon Get mad at mom, get mad at "god" Thumb through your catalog of who to blame your battle on You'd cattle prod your own kid for your next fix Travel on to Babylon - then miss the exit To blame the same dame that gave you the directions You smell of 12 shades of desperate Simple and plain, your minimal shame Almost brings me to physical pain Your miserable claims of "prisoner" Scream "visitor" with invisible chains Your pitiful ways get the best of you Yea, you buckled Under knuckles whiter than your meth abuse We can compare stares and amounts of air While you bet I think less of you Too bad you gotta love someone to care [Hook] [Verse] You used to dunk me By sucking me underneath by my sunken feet Or just jump me Hands on my shoulders looked comforting I suffered with the thought that you had sunk me But you just wanted company - lucky me 'cause you're as sad as it gets Far be it from me to sink your battleship, You sack of shit Maybe if someone cracked a whip You wouldn't be a fragile twit Cracking under gavel hits You're a savage cyst, a rabid tick I thought you had that habit kicked Instead, you licked your lips And lit your pipe dreams with a candlestick Too bad you can't keep that candle lit Admire the campfires And hold sapphire to brand the wick In hopes to scale the rope - you won't You sailed the moat, failed to float And all that's left is to inhale the smoke [Verse] Can't draw breath with a sketchpad Each moment missed is a memory you'll never get back Go ahead, test that theory I'm leery of your lies With my eyes wide open Poking a stick in your side Hoping for your demise It's not too high a drop from a sunken ship Too high a climb to rock bottom living under it There it is. The second it hits you You can hold your breath forever And never take it with you It's true. You're better off breathing At least to forgive - if no other reason Heart: spring-loaded with wings folded in wax feathers Still come up short in contests of past measures I never pegged her for a beggar That'd ever accept the scepter Serves me right for not writing my characters better And to think, I've always protected you If I was you I'd only breathe to fog my reflection too..

Coke bottle frame Pretty as a pitcher Helps ease the pain With that smooth glass figure She numbs the brain to forget every bad thought Tongue in the rain Good 'til the last drop

[Hook] Tap, tap, tap, On the fiber glass The heat's intense, the smoke is dense Hear the fire lap 'till it spider cracks Tap, tap, tap On the fiber glass The heat's immense, the window's tense Hear the fire lap 'till it spider cracks [Verse] Disappointment in the trophy case; reflected Views askew due to natural selection We're all born shot glasses & raised mirrors As we age, the view through the pane becomes clearer As the end draws nearer, We pull the blinds To watch the hourglass collapse With the sands of time 'il then, flowers collect dust in the vase They say "it pays to praise," Pace yourself & play it safe That's probably why most break Take a step back and examine the pieces You can clean it up; sweep it or just leave it The mess holds a message so read it I've seen it. Seen the bleeding caused by the mess From the snow globe in those we're supposed to protect The glare always changes with the season So my protest stands to reason There's frost on this windshield It's fucking freezing. [Hook] [Verse] A social experiment: explained One's very essence of innocence ensnared in a frame Watching the rain through stained glass Etched in the corner to repeat the past I refuse to laugh Through a two way mirror Mimicked with a glass Pressed to the door to listen A second reflection is another shot at life I'm too sketchy about my own etchings I'd never think I got it right And I'm too selfish Couldn't toast if I wanted to Too afraid of the glass floor falling through Even if I was convinced to lift and I toasted I could get pissed and give two shits if I broke it I'm upfront. It's all about me I hold my own mirror without people proud to see the cups lock lips without a single drop dripped Gazing in awe like I'm hot shit Stop it. I could never marry liquors It scares me watching my sisters As their shimmering light bulbs get dimmer So I'll stick to my own pitcher In hopes of drowning the slow swimmers [Hook] [Interlude] I hold this cup with a calm courage in a firm grip. Frequenting sips when I'm nervous Condensation collecting on the surface Rum on the rocks as my thoughts just flourish A reflection full of rejection and shame A face drained of emotion A box: open. A mirror: broken. Predicting space with words unspoken Everyday paved as an uphill battle Overlooking the box labeled fragile [Verse] Leaving a lazy trail of shattered glass Foreshadowing a future picking up pieces of a shattered past Gluing the gathered glass back in it's frame Restitching an image with the remains But it's never the same And the only trace of a replacement is placed in the basement Engraved to erase and traces of vagrant To break it would realize an outline of lies Symbolized within a wrinkle in time In lieu of the true view, chips are full of truth Despite what's assumed, not all glass is bulletproof It makes an easy target Especially when it doesn't fit the mold Watch red wine stain white carpet Eventually we indulge They say "eyes are windows to the soul" If we break it and take shit, They investigate it and evaluate what was stole A home once full will never be whole again Broken like a half-empty beer; discarded Drunk and stumbling into a case of arson That's why I won't do it But they'll call me stupid 'til it's proven 'til the house is engulfed in flames With myself to blame and sift through the ruins [Outro] Now..look into their windows. Tainted, tinted, painted..black like a limo's 'cause I didn't stick to my lucid plan To leave perfection un-messed with by human hands

[Verse] Gun in hand with a look like I'm annoyed I didn't want 'em dead, I just wanted 'em destroyed War is an art and hard to avoid An inevitable, inedible pill once troops deployed But I rejoiced at the noise of the riots Caustic caped-crusaders angered at such violence Assumed. Diving in defiance of two tyrants Coming at him and I like kamikaze pilots Taking refuge in our hands, We'd refuse their demands And fight fire 'til the flames got higher in the stands With no real chance of surrender I could sleep on a bed of feathers and sleep better But flashbacks make me remember.. The birds with their.. [Verse] Charcoal-colored marble eyes Wait to watch 'em caramelize -to trick me. Then stick me with sharpened knives Witness one turn to fifty as they flock like sheep The wide-eyed wise ones watch me sleep And they all ask the same question: "Who? Who?" - No matter who I mention There's tension in the trees. You can sense it Satan's henchmen come to send me a message: "Look to the sky." - The "V" is for "Vengeance" I've smelt the Epsom, it's just not accepted I've tried to hide and go by undetected But I seem to be sought where ever they've nested Homeless and heartless; they sharpen their weapons They'll haunt me and taunt me 'til they've taught me a lesson Beads of sweat compliment the anxious With stiffness of breathing and heart palpitations [Bridge x2] "Thump, thump. Thump, thump" in the floor. "Thump, thump. Thump, thump," nevermore. "Thump, thump. Thump, thump" in the floor. "Thump, thump," sounds of a settled score. [Hook] x2 A man-made man of the law Made with sticks and bits of straw Crucified in the eyes of a suicide But shivers with the wind whenever there's a "caw!" [Verse] Paradigms perched on the power lines; pryin' Deadly diseases disguised as sirens Threading diamonds through the eyelet of their needle beaks Seamless seamstress trying to keep it's secret evil streak 14-karat seraphs on a long list of seagull speak to forever burn Using worms to floss their regal teeth So why do I look to the sky so empty? With a squirt gun - hoping to hurt one Watching through shades of envy This hawk mocks me As he slices through the ripened sky I'm only free by proxy No confidence. So it's no compliment to be called a kamikaze When I can't dive towards the concrete and get off scot-free It's not that my wings never grew It's that their wax melted way before I ever flew

[Verse] Thirsty like a child; street puddle murky Hunting season has me tracking Wild Turkey I'm fucking done chugging rum My lucky number's 101 I've become troublesome. Nothing's fun No phone. Prone to do something dumb Sometimes, I wish there was a better way 'bout to detonate. Bobbing in bottles looking for yesterday Lonely lion looking for courage Hurting inside. At times hurting to die It's sad seeing people from my past with a purpose Checking every shot searching for mine I've only found peace once but never learned how to dive Too afraid of steep jumps So, in turn, I learned how to self-serve Getting thrills from the cheap stuff No fear of the fail, just scared of the scale The tape tells a tale; weighing in my options You know who, gone cuckoo. Counting maladies and wading in my loses A shark in shambles bent on hope Faux pas on a soap box against the ropes Shit's creek battle - half-paddling Dabbling in gambling going for broke Stick stuck in the spokes Tin Man with a quick fix to cope Pac-Man on his last stand running from ghosts Fighting to keep any semblance of independence Pouring a 40 on the remnants of my friendships Innocence too diminished to get it back Especially with horrid vision So I'ma pound this fifth of Jack 'til I piss poor decisions [Hook] x2 If tears were 99 proof I'd vent my pain all the time I'd pray everyday if someone would turn water into wine If tears were 99 proof I'd vent my pain all the time And pray everyday if someone could turn water into wine